It’s a nightly ritual. With little ones tucked in tight, I enjoy a shower.
Quiet and long.
This is one place where I meet with my Lord. In this place, I can pour it all out before Him. Tears, anger, joy, brokenness, pain, praise, fears, love…
In this place there is no fear.
No fear of banging on the door screaming about the injustice done by her sister.
No fear of little hands in the toilet or emptying yet another packet of taco seasoning on the floor.
No fear of rejection.
No fear of condemnation.
This particular night was no exception. I was looking forward to the solitude as I stepped into the bathroom and found the note.
My soul is touched by her thoughtfulness and tears invade. Such a precious love note and it was for ME!
Behind me I hear her snicker. I turn to hug her and she says, “I know that you cry in the shower sometimes and I just wanted you to feel loved.”
For a moment, I forget all of the pain and impossible circumstances. I cherish the beauty in her heart. I can only thank God for carrying her through this valley and my heart swells with love for His blessing over her.
I wonder how she knows all of this, but decide not to ask. My mind is racing with all of the “what ifs” and “whys.”
Then she whispers a promise. Remember mommy,
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him…Romans 8:28
My heart breaks and rejoices all at the same time over the fact that my 7 year old can quote that verse to me in this moment. I am in awe at how God has used the darkness to lead her to shine the Light. I think over all of the curriculum, books, and tapes out there to help guide her into a godly young woman and I realize it. Alone, they will never be enough. Only God can draw her close. Here in the darkness is where she will grow. I may not like it, but it’s not up to me. Here in the moments of a stormy life is where she will truly KNOW HIM because He is all she has.
Tell me about a time when someone blessed you with their words. How can we bless others? Do you find it difficult to trust God with your kids?
Kim Sorgius
Kim is just a girl, crazy in love with Jesus. She's a single mother of 4, a passionate homeschooler and life-long student. After teaching 8 years in public school, she traded her M.A. in Early Childhood for sippy cups and homeschool co-ops. Kim is the owner and editor of The Homeschool Village and Not Consumed where she encourages others to rest victoriously in the hands of God, rather than allowing life's difficult circumstances to consume.
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so SUPER thoughtful & kind. You’re doing a great job teaching them
Made me cry this morning….
She is not really the most sensitive of my children, so I was certainly surprised. Sorry we made you cry. :-)
I am in tears…such a sweet girl. And her actions speak very highly of you too Kim. The seed you have planted is blossoming beautifully.
These are the moments that are so important to hold onto. Because the next day, she will say or do something that will require great patience and grace in dealing with. I am ever so slowly learning to see her like this, like God sees her and not like she behaves in the moment. I’m sure you can relate!
Kim, this was amazing to read. Thank you so much for sharing. God truly uses our children to bless our hearts. You ARE loved sweet friend.
Love,
Heather
You are right, Heather. He uses them to bless me daily. Sometimes, I just have to look past my own inhibitions to see it.
Wow Kim, this made me tear up. Thank you for sharing. I only hope I can raise my sons to have spiritual knowledge like that when they are 7.
Hey Kim, what a BEAUTIFUL story! It sounds like God gave you a taste of what He is doing in her life… I can imagine the joy and encouragement that must’ve invaded your mind in those precious moments with her! I also, have a beautiful 7 year old little woman… may we continue to lay them at the masters feet. He knows how to care for them best! -Blessings to you girl, Amy
Yes, He knows how to care for them best. Let us not forget that!
Gosh–are we in an alternate universe? My dd has done the same thing…& I use the ‘shower’ the same way. Daughters are a blessing, for sure. Right there w/ ya sister. Keep on keeping on.
When I read this, “I know that you cry in the shower sometimes and I just wanted you to feel loved.”, I started bawling! How beautiful and precious our children are! What an uplifting treasure for you. So happy you have that memory!