This morning my sweet little 2 year old turned on the charm with those big blue eyes and pleaded for another piece of toast. Believing that two carb-infused and sugar coated slabs were sufficient for one breakfast, I told him no. He pierced his little lips and squinted his eyes in anger. “Fine,” he stomped away angrily “I’m gonna tell my mommy.”
After moments of hysterical laughter over his decision to threaten me with telling-ME that I was being unreasonable, I felt a little nudge. You know, the kind we all hate. The kind that comes from a gracious Father who loves me far too much not to point out those places that need work in my own heart.
I remembered the age old trick of asking another parent who didn’t know that the first parent had said no-all in hopes of getting a different answer.
How guilty I am of that. Perhaps not to my earthly parents, but often to my Father. He makes clear His calling on my moments and I whine, drag my feet, or worse-ask Him why it can’t be another way. Suddenly I could see myself stomping away shouting back at Him- I’m gonna tell my momma. Yikes.
This is not the kind of daughter I want to be. I so desire to please Him….to be grateful for His provision. I long to have the faith to really believe that if He says that I can’t have anymore toast- it’s because He has something so much better. I want to trust that HE is working all things for my good, but those little shards of doubt pierce any sensible reasoning and I find myself questioning Him.
The truth is…His way is always right. Even when it’s unknown, risky, and unplanned, His way brings blessing. I’m praying that we would all be able to rest in that today.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Psalm 143:8
Your turn~ do you struggle to trust God in those little {or even big} things sometimes? Let’s encourage one another.
Kim Sorgius
Kim is just a girl, crazy in love with Jesus. She's a single mother of 4, a passionate homeschooler and life-long student. After teaching 8 years in public school, she traded her M.A. in Early Childhood for sippy cups and homeschool co-ops. Kim is the owner and editor of The Homeschool Village and Not Consumed where she encourages others to rest victoriously in the hands of God, rather than allowing life's difficult circumstances to consume.
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This is so true. I often see this behavior in my kids and then realize that i too do this. It is my first instinct to get frustrated with them for this. I mean, didn’t I just give an answer. But then I have to remember that I do the same just on a different scale. So thanks for pointing it out. May I clearly see this behavior in myself and allow God to change me. May I trust his answer and not seek another. And if I don’t question or so quickly argue it, then maybe I will learn to discern his voice more clearly. To learn to be grateful and say as Mary did, “…let it be to me according to your Word.” Our Father does desire good things for us. the right things. he is faithful and trustworthy to care for me and give me what i need as well as extra good gifts (like toast with jelly
).
And this is different than your purpose in writing, but your story reminded me of another thing I have been pondering. So often when we have “treats”, like toast with jelly, my kids will say, “I am still hungry. Can I have more?” But it is obvious what they really mean is that taste good and so I want more of it. They aren’t really hungry. I have tried to point this out to them. And in doing so, I see that truth in my own life. Where I confuse hunger (a need) and a desire for more of something tasty or something that is really treat.
Right there with you, I get frustrated with how my kids will act at times but then I turn around and do the same thing sometimes, hello wonder where they get that from. Umm that would be me. Working on remembering I am being watched by little eyes. and I also need to work on my own responses to my heavenly Father, thanks for being so open and honest to so many.
Great post! I often see things in my children that open my eyes about myself. Really good writing.Thanks for sharing.
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That was needed just now. Thanks for sharing from your heart.
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I thoroughly approve. With thanks ,Christian
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