I read the text message again and the knot sinks deeper into my stomach. My arms tingle with hysteria and tears invade like a vicious summer storm. After nearly 4 years of crashing waves, you’d think I could stand up in the safety and protection of my Savior, knowing that I’m in the “shallow end” of His peace.
But I don’t. I sink deeper under the waves and give in to the pressure of the circumstances. The tears stain. The words echo searing scars into my heart.
It’s a familiar place. The one I cling to when waves crash disaster onto all that I want to be “normal.” The place where my knees buckle weak into the foam of despair and brokenness.
But it’s a desperate place of slavery: my personal Egypt. I’m much like those Israelites…clinging to the slavery of what is known (no matter what the cost) and forgetting the promises of my loving and merciful Savior. In the waves of the storm, I can’t see all that God has promised and I long for what was before.
Never mind that it was a false security…it still allures me with empty promises of stability.
I read that old entry in my journal a few days ago. In some ways, it’s hard to believe how far I’ve come on this journey. And in some ways, it’s easy to see that I can slip back into that same place of not remembering.
Maybe I’m the only one, but I often find myself feeling a little discouraged about the circumstances of life. Sometimes it’s my own fiery trial. Sometimes it’s a little thing like dog poo in the living room or Captain Crunch ground into the carpet. Whether it seems like the daily life of motherhood is overwhelming or that the life is unfair, we all need a promise.
The good news is, God gives us a lot of amazing promises in His Word. And He commands us to remember them. Have you ever read the story of when those Israelite children crossed over the Jordan into the promised land? After all they had gone through, He asked them to specifically create a memorial so that they would never forget His promises. (Read Joshua 4)
I’ve got to think that if it was possible for them to forget the parting of the Red Sea, the parting of the Jordan, the provision of manna every day, and the fall of the wall of Jericho, I probably have no chance of remembering His promises to me. I must write them down and read them often.
How about you? Do you find yourself needing this reminder as well?
Scripture For When You Need A Promise
I am adding these promise cards to our collection of scripture cards. I pray that you will find God’s truth to be a balm to your weary soul in those moments when you need a promise the most.
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I pray that these free printables bless your family and help you to bless others this year. You can get the FREE printables by clicking on the image above. It will take you to the page where you can read more about the Free Scripture Cards set.